Beralih Arah.....?

Aq sedih la,dulu aq ade 5 orang biras,sorg je yg aq knl,which is Yati,Baby’s wife.But since the “Bed Scene Incident,” idk her status.Nk tnye,she already warned me not to mention HJB’s name.She still feel hurt.Yela,aq yg bkn bias dye pn bengang weh,malu,sedih,skit aty,kecewa,sume ade.Kalo dye lagilah…Kyn plk,lps yg Kyu n spe ntah pompuan tuh wat pengakuan they’ve like each other for a long time,Kyn da mcm krg sket ngan Kyu.She almost give up,but nasebla ade Mrs Haengi dtg menyelamat.So she’s still the Mrs Kyukyn.

Hani, prnh terluka skali,sbb aq.Pabo btol la aq ni pn,ade ke patut aq tnye dye sal tuh?Adeshhhh…Sal gf Leeteuk(now ex),an artist gk,she was YS’s gf’s once.It just a rumor,but he never deny jugk..ntahla..lgipon bnda tu da lme kn.Tp aq still rse bersalh ngan Hani..... Mianhe Mrs Haengi   *ketuk2,sekeh2 kepala sndrik =(

And now,the critical stage.Yang plg aq xtaw dh nk ckp ape.

Dulu2 seronok gile time Akma ngan Yana gado2 sume,berebutkn JM.But now both of them dh lpskn JM.Akma da beralih arah to Kevin,and Yana,Seungyeol.Aq pn bkn knl sgt ngan Seungyeol tuh,which one is him,I juz know he is one of Infinite’s member.Yana ade ckp kt Akma,dye da kasi JM kt Akma sepenuhnya,dye da xnak JM.Akma plk makin hari makin gilakan Kevin.

Aq tak kesah sgt pon,but I juz can feel that I already lost both of Mrs Park.BOTH,at the SAME TIME! >.<”

Aq taw aq xde hak nk halang dorang.Yelah,minat orang,xkanlah aq sebok2 nk sekat,mrh2 plk.Gile ke ape?Same la mcm aq,aq xske org sebok2 campur hal aq,mnat aq,ske ati aq la nk suke sape2 pn kan.So do them.Aq kna la fhm,mnat msing2,maybe da sampai msenye dorang beralih arah lps berthun2 stuck with JM.Same as aq ske ske Eli la,xkn dorg nk mrh aq kot sbb mnt dye,lol.Cme bezanya aq xkan tinggalkan HJL,kalo dye sndri xwat hal.I mean,kalo dye wat mcm “HJB’s BAD Incident” abesla.If he did,the probability for me to leave him is quite high.Juz leave him la,not SS501,not Triple S.EXCEPT if SS501 is disband…I’ll leave kpop world as well……………

Aq bkn diktator,aq bknnye spe2 nk arhkn dorg suh tuka2 idols.I juz surprised that Akma finally changes her twitter’s name to Mrs Kevin Woo.Idk why my got hurt a little and my heart beats faster.it was like “Gulp!” a Big,Large,Giant stone dah hempuk kepala aq.Nk taw cmne batu tuh,gi tgok cte2 katun tu,yg slalu ade btu besar yg dilepaskn ke bwh gaung gtu.Camtula perasaan aq.Tersenget sket kepala aq kna hempuk tuh.

But I can do nothing.It’s her choice,nak wat cmne lgi.Kalo la dye bace ni maybe dye igt aq marah,but actually I’m not.Frankly.Kita xley nk pkse2 perasaan org kn.If she thinks I’m annoying,nk wat cmne,this is juz my luahn perasaan je.

And me,aq laen.Aq ssh nk btol2 ske someone,but once I like him,it’s really hard to let him go from my mind,from my heart.I never date,but of course I got crush to any guy before.1^st,when I was in drjh 4,5,gtu la.ske gtu2 je pon.Tp mse drjh 6,aq tersuke plk kt klasmet aq sndrik.OMG!gile btol,aq sekelas dgn dye since drjh 1,drjh 6 tetibe leh syok kt dye plk.Tmbhn plk mse tu aq dpt taw something wrong with my 1^st crush tuh,so I use my klasmet ni la utk lpekn dye.huhu..jht kn aq?Tp jht2 aq,jht ag dye.I got crush on him for almost 6years!Aq tggu dye.yes.bodo je ase kn.nk wt cmne,asl nk lupe je,mst dye tetibe muncul.ape nk buat…aq stop pn sbb aq taw somethng gk sal dye.Yela,he can’t be the same as 6 years ago kn.and for that I use HJL to forget him.memula ssh,sbb da sebati ngan aq kn.lme2 nme HJL plk yg sangkut and skrg aq da btol2 xde perasaan ngan mamat 2^nd tuh.Kebetuln je pn mse tu bru knl SS501.Thanks guys,esp to u dear HJL,for coming in the right time for me.I LOVE YOU ALL (^_^)

But to forget HJL,sshnye Allah je taw.ade je muncul dye kt mne2.Aq ni kalo da suke sumone ,xpndg da org laen.kalo pndg pn,aq akn bndgkn dorg n make a conclusion that he is better,the best for me.Aq hnye leh lpe someone to only if there are another better guy for me than the previous one.But the problem now,who can compete my HJL?no one knows…..Allah je taw =)

And YES, I’m crazy about Eli,but I don’t think he can’t ever compete with my HJL.Aq xckp pn HJL perfect,ade certain2 parts bout him dat I don’t like.He is not an angel ok.He juz an alien yg tersesat kt muke bumi ni.

Only if one day(really hope this won’t ever happen! >.<) I leave HJL,it’ll take a long,long time to forget him.Or it might not happen,forgetting him is juz like taking away a precious thing from my life.And Eli,he’ll forever be my Beloved Boyfriend,lol.Number 1.Kalo HJL xde pon the place will remains kosong camtu je.xde pengganti.Boyfren is a boyfren,xkan sme ngan hubby,huhu~

So in the other words,no matter how I’m crazy bout Eli,or another guy,I’ll NEVER can leave,forgetting HJL.He is my life savior,ok?Eli is my 2^nd life savior,I only used him when I got heartbroken or dissappointed/sad /pissed off/angry to HJL.Dorg ttp ade tmpt yg laen2 dlm ati aq ok?

Ok that’s all utk entry ni kot.Kalo spe2 rse menyampah ngan ape yg aq tulis nih,nk muntah,muak,meluat,aq xpedulik pon.Sape suh ko bace.Aq tls sbg luahn perasaan aq je,bkn nk suh org bace.Lbh2 ag kalo ko tu Antis.I HATE ANTIS.bole bla la kalo benci kpop.Ko bkn kpopers,ape ko taw.U’ll never understand perasaan org mcm kami nih.Or ko nk ckp “Aq pn kpopers gk,mnt gk korea,hardcore ag tp xde la poyo mcm ko,perasan je lebih.mcm la HJL tu taw ko syg gile kt dye”

Utk org2 sedemikian,sy nk ckp sket,Laen org Laen citarasa beb .Kalo org laen crush ngan org2 sekeliling,aq tak.Bkn xnak,tp xde yg sesuai.Aq ni cerewet,wpon aq sndri xdela gorgeous.Ko nk ckp aq nk cri mcm muke korea?Only if he got HJL’s face.yg laen blh bla.

#Lagu yg aq psg spnjg tulis lgu nih = SS501 – Let Me Be The One( I keep replay the song till the end).Nk dgr Let’s Break Away,tp mcm agk rnck plk,lol ;P

K,dah,stop.C u in the next entry.For my biras,only if u read this,sis juz nk ckp sis xde niat pon nk mrh korg k?Bkn hak sis pn nk mrh korang.Xkanla sis nk kontrol korang plk kn.Juz live this life as u’re,not bcoz of another person’s wish/arahan.Tu nmenye robot.And I’m SORRY if any of my words hurts u,yr heart,ur feelings,or makes u annoy,pissed off. Sis xde niat cmtu pn.Juz nk wat luahn perasaan je.nk tls smpn dlm lappy,nnt berat,so tls dlm blog je la,hehe…(but really hope dorang  xbace >,<)

~Assalamualaikum~

Akhir kata,^^v Peace No War

*Esk ade kuiz Law,Banking,ko tls bnda ni plak.Bagos SNZ.walhal tls notes lg bgos daa...bnda ni laen kli pn leh tulis =.=’ 2:340 a.m

Ditulis dlm m.words 5March2012,ari ahad,pagi isnin,lol
(mse ni xde line ;P)